Today I feel a bit overwhelmed with thoughts on various different things. Mostly my thoughts surrounding my next steps in my career and what it is I truly want to accomplish in my life. I’m thinking so much that I can’t seem to relax. I know that I’m making progress towards goals I set last year. I guess I’m feeling a bit impatient and also having thoughts of altering the course in a few areas. I don’t want to sleep until I have it all figured out. But, Rome wasn’t built in a day. And, it would really be supportive of myself to simply be patient and take my time.
There are so many things that I want to accomplish and I feel like I want to do them all right NOW. But, I have to remind myself that life is about the journey not about the goals we set. It’s about how we operate in attaining the goals. It’s about enjoying the process, having fun, relaxing, actually living my life. It’s about taking it one day at a time. I don’t always have to know how I’m getting to where I’m going. I don’t have to have all the answers either.
It seems whenever we make a declaration, decision, or change of habit…immediately life throws us a test to see if we’re really serious. Sometimes the test is obvious, other times it’s not. When it’s not, that’s when we start sentences with the phrase, “well, technically…(insert your slippery excuse here)…” I, too, started sliding down that slippery road to square one again, when my clever friend said…
“Just make choices that will keep you empowered…
ultimately for your highest good and good of others.”
-C.Y.
I don’t know if that did anything for you…lol. But, for me it was an easy way to test if my choices are supporting me or pushing me down that slippery slide. Simply asking myself the question, ‘is this choice empowering me?’, is enough to keep me on sturdy ground.
Are you making empowering choices? Are you making choices that will propel you, lift you to the next level, and strengthen you? Something to think about…:)
Change is constant in life. Yet, everything is always in a perfect balance. When we feel ourselves going a bit slower, or feeling a little out of sorts, it’s okay. I find that when this happens, it’s just my body or spirit nudging me to take it slow for a little while…to just be patient with myself. Maybe I’ve been overexerting myself. Or, maybe there’s something I haven’t quite dealt with emotionally that needs to come up. When I go with this flow instead of fighting it, I find that I move out of it much quicker. And, before I know it, I’m back to my usually bubbly self again…:)
Take the time to take things slow for once. Relax and enjoy the sunshine, listen your favorite song, take a nap for once, buy yourself some flowers, spoil yourself with a nice bubble batch, cry, laugh…do what makes you happy in the moment. Trust yourself and be kind to yourself. Only you can make yourself happy. Why not start now? :)
I still drive my very first car…it’s an ’01 Honda Civic…I love her. I’ve never had any serious problems from her, she’s always been very dependable. Except there was a period of time when my battery would become completely drained without any known explanation. After this happened a few times, I took it into the shop. I explained that I didn’t have anything plugged in, never left the lights on, and didn’t understand what was causing this. They said they’d run a test and let me know.
The mechanic called me later to say that the tests showed that there was something in my car that was constantly pulling energy from the battery, even when the car wasn’t on. They looked through the car to find the culprit and later found that it was my car alarm draining the car.
You see, when I first got the car, my parents took it to the neighborhood mechanic to hook up an alarm system in my car that was cheaper than the manufacturer’s alarm. Yeah…it was bootleg..don’t judge me…lol. This alarm was installed incorrectly and was causing a major energy drain without me even knowing it.
And, I thought to myself…how often does this happen in our lives? How often do we subconsciously hold onto people, old situations, old stories, old beliefs, old relationships that are literally sucking the life out of us, and we don’t even know it? How often do we keep people in our lives that no longer feed us, and instead leave us feeling depleted? How often do we stay at jobs that no longer challenge, inspire, or fulfill us? How often do we avoid stepping outside the box, only to stay cramped and stunted doing the same ole, same ole day in and day out.
I’m learning to recognize the energy drains in my life. I’m learning when it’s time to let go and move on. Sometimes it has nothing to do with ‘the people’ or ‘that job’. Sometimes, it’s simply the mind set, or belief attached to them that is causing the energy drain.
What’s causing the energy drain in your life? Are you ready to let go and move on? Are you ready to stand in your power and go for what you really want?
My heart says things that my mouth can’t…
My heart feels pain that no medicine can erase…
My heart knows what my mind cannot acknowledge…
My heart refuses…
to believe
what
is
true
‘What about your heart, Sid?’
My heart is with hip hop
and I wish it wasn’t dead
Cuz hip hop…
‘I used to love you, I still do, and I always will.’
