Writings, poems, quotes, etc.


My heart says things that my mouth can’t…

My heart feels pain that no medicine can erase…

My heart knows what my mind cannot acknowledge…

My heart refuses…

to believe

what

is

true

‘What about your heart, Sid?’

My heart is with hip hop

and I wish it wasn’t dead

Cuz hip hop…

‘I used to love you, I still do, and I always will.’

I'm addicted…

yet I don't want rehab
nor interventions
i don't want words of wisdom
nor voice of reason
even when coming from my own head
parts of me wants to eat nothing but cake
and chocolate covered strawberries
even though it makes my stomach hurt
it satisfies me inexplicably
wanting what is forbidden
…hurts me so good

Juicy like a sweet organic orange
I smile as your citrus kisses send tingles to my ears
rejuvenating my senses
Your scent is like fresh air
 
better than sugar
you send me on a natural high
my body rejoices as it welcomes you
your healing touches make my soul cry
 
eagerly i undress you
i yearn for your yummy goodness
layer by layer…
slice by slice
 
once revealed i see now
parts of you only for me to enjoy
i could share, but i dare not
for i'm like a spoiled child with my favorite toy

My heart hurts…

You whisper sweet nothings in my ear

while you slip poison in my drink.

Your wise words cause me to doubt

my wise thoughts…

But today I will endure the unfamiliarity

of trusting the voices within;

I will not drink your drink today.

I'm not going to cry, not this time

because it's not my fault

this is your issue, not mine

I've tried so many times to take the blame for you

to protect you from dealing with the consequences of your actions

but, i can't anymore

the pain is just too much

the daggers of your words and intonations

have finally brought a death to my innocence.

I'm not going to cry, not this time

because this is my fault

this is my issue, not yours

I've enabled you and embedded a belief in my heart

that I should accept your ways because of love.

But today I remove these daggers and I return them to you.

Today I mend my heart and cherish it for it is deserving of 

a love that feels good, strengthens and encourages

today I give birth to my true authentic self.